I hope my future is filled with happiness, and a healthy family.
I would love to have a nice steady income that my family can live comfortably in without worry about bankruptcy.
I hope that I achieve my dream job, and dream diploma.
Marry a wonder man who loves me, and will never purposely hurt me. And if he did, he will say sorry. I want to be the couple where people will say "They're still together?" and "I wish I was like them"
I want to have 2 children, a boy and a girl. They will be smart, loving, caring children who are obedient.
I will have a extravagant wedding, where all my and his family will gather together to celebrate our binding.
My house will be grand, and I will be living in a nice neighbourhood where my children will be safe.
Overall, I will be happy. I want my future to be happy, and where I will be working a job I will be satisfied with. Where I will not be working at a minimum waged job.
Friday, April 27, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Eos new adult brown
This is just a sneak peek of the new adult brown lenses I own! I love them to death. It's beautiful~~ hehe
Day 08 - A Moment you felt most satisfied with your life
A moment when I felt most satisfied.
When school started. In september, I was making new friends, I was social, but my marks were still high. I almost had everything. No, I didn't have a boyfriend at that time. I didn't need a guy to make me satisfied with my life. I felt strong, empowered to be independent and on my own. I loved my life then. It felt so perfect, good school, good grades, social life, sleep. It lasted for a month or so.
Then, it stopped. I pushed myself too hard. Things got stressful. I always push myself to my limit. But, I still wouldn't have it any other way.
Another moment that I felt happy was when the guy I liked said he liked me too.
Again, as all moments are, they are moments. They can only last for so long.
But, when it did happen, it felt great. I felt like I was on top of the world.
Another one was when I won jay park's album. It was fantastic. I got a poster, and jay was sexy. I was so lucky and greatful to win it!
I feel most satisfied with my life when I do something I enjoy. I feel relaxed and it doesn't feel rushed or pushed.
I sometimes enjoy studying, I feel satisfied when I accomplish my goal, maybe a simple one like studying in the library, to getting the best mark I can on my courses. Or..even being the best sister, the best friend, the best person I can.
There are many moments where I feel satisfied. Where I feel blissful.
When school started. In september, I was making new friends, I was social, but my marks were still high. I almost had everything. No, I didn't have a boyfriend at that time. I didn't need a guy to make me satisfied with my life. I felt strong, empowered to be independent and on my own. I loved my life then. It felt so perfect, good school, good grades, social life, sleep. It lasted for a month or so.
Then, it stopped. I pushed myself too hard. Things got stressful. I always push myself to my limit. But, I still wouldn't have it any other way.
Another moment that I felt happy was when the guy I liked said he liked me too.
Again, as all moments are, they are moments. They can only last for so long.
But, when it did happen, it felt great. I felt like I was on top of the world.
Another one was when I won jay park's album. It was fantastic. I got a poster, and jay was sexy. I was so lucky and greatful to win it!
I feel most satisfied with my life when I do something I enjoy. I feel relaxed and it doesn't feel rushed or pushed.
I sometimes enjoy studying, I feel satisfied when I accomplish my goal, maybe a simple one like studying in the library, to getting the best mark I can on my courses. Or..even being the best sister, the best friend, the best person I can.
There are many moments where I feel satisfied. Where I feel blissful.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it matches your personality
My zodiac sign is the Taurus. So I will be referencing to this wikipedia link on what a Taurus should be like.
So, first thing I see it says "stability, resistance to change, and the ability to 'enjoy the people'."
I do like stability, resist change so that is true, thought, this is applicable to anyone. Enjoy people? Not exactly sure what that means.
Based on what I'm reading on wikipedia, it is quite accurate. I am an introvert, passive aggressive. I do hold in my anger, but when I get angry, I blow up.
Although I do read my horoscope every morning, I do not believe that it foretells the future, or anything. There may be some spiritual connection. However, because I am a taurus does not mean that I'm like every taurus, or that my personality can be generalized. I do think that there may be a correlation though.
So, first thing I see it says "stability, resistance to change, and the ability to 'enjoy the people'."
I do like stability, resist change so that is true, thought, this is applicable to anyone. Enjoy people? Not exactly sure what that means.
Based on what I'm reading on wikipedia, it is quite accurate. I am an introvert, passive aggressive. I do hold in my anger, but when I get angry, I blow up.
Although I do read my horoscope every morning, I do not believe that it foretells the future, or anything. There may be some spiritual connection. However, because I am a taurus does not mean that I'm like every taurus, or that my personality can be generalized. I do think that there may be a correlation though.
Monday, April 23, 2012
Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself
1) I like learning.
2) I have a high pain tolerance
3) I'm very independent. I don't like anybody doing things for me.
4) Sometimes, I go crazy organizing things. For example, things MUST be in a certain order. Or colour...
5) I like the colour pink. Not any pink, but baby pink.
6) I'm bad with change. I get into a routine, and hate it when that get's messed up.
7) I like routine.
8) I'm a morning person.
9) But I still like sleep.
10) I like eating.
11) I like shopping [clearly]
12) Sometimes, I'm overly emotional.
13) I sometimes buy 2 of everything, one to use, and one to just...keep. LAWL
14) Despite organizing things like crazy, I can be messy...and when I am, I'm REALLY messy.
15) I try to smile a lot.
16) I'm not as girly as I look. I'm manly at times. I burp like a man : D
17) I'm lazy.
18) I have bad vision, and sometimes can't see things...or people.
19) I like taking pictures, but I've become too shy now to whip out my camera and take pictures.
20) Sometimes [or is it often...?] I say something that sounds horrible, but I didn't mean to...For example I may say 'it' instead of he or she. I don't mean that they aren't human...it's just habit that I say that.
21) I'm really shy, yet, outgoing? I'm shy to approach people sometimes, but if you talk to me, I'm friendly. Does that make sense?
22) I'm not very creative. When making usernames...I'm usually stuck.
23) I'm a private person. I don't like people knowing my business. [Although, I am writing a blog...haha]
24) I'm a texting addict. I love texting people!
25) I'm self-conscious. I notice all of my flaws, and anything wrong with me. You could say I have low self-esteem. But, I do know that I'm not ugly. I just get moments where I don't believe I'm attractive. At all.
26) I've probably had every procedure done on my teeth. Wisdom teeth extraction? yup. Braces? yup. Root canal? yup. Expanders? oh hell yeah. I've done nearly everything to have perfect teeth.
27) I dislike needles. Yeah...gotta suck if I want to go into the medical field.
28) I'm punctual. And I hate people who aren't.
29) I'm frugal. I don't like to waste money. Though, I'm questioning my money management skills right now.
30) I'm a messy eater. I get things in my hair or lap.. haha
2) I have a high pain tolerance
3) I'm very independent. I don't like anybody doing things for me.
4) Sometimes, I go crazy organizing things. For example, things MUST be in a certain order. Or colour...
5) I like the colour pink. Not any pink, but baby pink.
6) I'm bad with change. I get into a routine, and hate it when that get's messed up.
7) I like routine.
8) I'm a morning person.
9) But I still like sleep.
10) I like eating.
11) I like shopping [clearly]
12) Sometimes, I'm overly emotional.
13) I sometimes buy 2 of everything, one to use, and one to just...keep. LAWL
14) Despite organizing things like crazy, I can be messy...and when I am, I'm REALLY messy.
15) I try to smile a lot.
16) I'm not as girly as I look. I'm manly at times. I burp like a man : D
17) I'm lazy.
18) I have bad vision, and sometimes can't see things...or people.
19) I like taking pictures, but I've become too shy now to whip out my camera and take pictures.
20) Sometimes [or is it often...?] I say something that sounds horrible, but I didn't mean to...For example I may say 'it' instead of he or she. I don't mean that they aren't human...it's just habit that I say that.
21) I'm really shy, yet, outgoing? I'm shy to approach people sometimes, but if you talk to me, I'm friendly. Does that make sense?
22) I'm not very creative. When making usernames...I'm usually stuck.
23) I'm a private person. I don't like people knowing my business. [Although, I am writing a blog...haha]
24) I'm a texting addict. I love texting people!
25) I'm self-conscious. I notice all of my flaws, and anything wrong with me. You could say I have low self-esteem. But, I do know that I'm not ugly. I just get moments where I don't believe I'm attractive. At all.
26) I've probably had every procedure done on my teeth. Wisdom teeth extraction? yup. Braces? yup. Root canal? yup. Expanders? oh hell yeah. I've done nearly everything to have perfect teeth.
27) I dislike needles. Yeah...gotta suck if I want to go into the medical field.
28) I'm punctual. And I hate people who aren't.
29) I'm frugal. I don't like to waste money. Though, I'm questioning my money management skills right now.
30) I'm a messy eater. I get things in my hair or lap.. haha
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your life.
Oh boy.... As an anguish teen, this thought runs through my head all the time. I've never went through with it though.
I don't know how many times when I was younger where I wish that I wasn't alive. I was a shy kid, and I hated being alone. Majority of my childhood was spent by myself.
Yes, I have cut myself. Not something I'm proud of. It really isn't healthy, and yes, I have thoughts of re-lapsing, but I haven't cut myself for 5 years. I don't think I could do it again, it's not worth it. So if you have the strength, please stop. Life get's better. Trust me on this. I know.
Now, as a young teen, I was quite depressed. Going through puberty, with my parents working, I never got to see them. I had to grow up quickly, and with the wide array of hormones popping up in my body, I was overly emotional. I wanted my parents around, but they were never there for me. They had to provide for us. We didn't have a lot of money growing up, despite what it may seem.
In some ways, I really craved attention, and that was one of the ways. If they saw me hurting, they might pay attention to me. They might notice how much I'm hurting emotionally.
There was one time, where I took off the screen mesh of my window, and just climbed out to look at the stars. A lot had been happening at school, and I didn't necessarily wanted to jump, but if I fell...it wouldn't have mattered to me.
But anyways, I have thought of suicide, more than once. And I still get those thoughts every so often. It doesn't necessarily mean I act upon them thought.
I don't know how many times when I was younger where I wish that I wasn't alive. I was a shy kid, and I hated being alone. Majority of my childhood was spent by myself.
Yes, I have cut myself. Not something I'm proud of. It really isn't healthy, and yes, I have thoughts of re-lapsing, but I haven't cut myself for 5 years. I don't think I could do it again, it's not worth it. So if you have the strength, please stop. Life get's better. Trust me on this. I know.
Now, as a young teen, I was quite depressed. Going through puberty, with my parents working, I never got to see them. I had to grow up quickly, and with the wide array of hormones popping up in my body, I was overly emotional. I wanted my parents around, but they were never there for me. They had to provide for us. We didn't have a lot of money growing up, despite what it may seem.
In some ways, I really craved attention, and that was one of the ways. If they saw me hurting, they might pay attention to me. They might notice how much I'm hurting emotionally.
There was one time, where I took off the screen mesh of my window, and just climbed out to look at the stars. A lot had been happening at school, and I didn't necessarily wanted to jump, but if I fell...it wouldn't have mattered to me.
But anyways, I have thought of suicide, more than once. And I still get those thoughts every so often. It doesn't necessarily mean I act upon them thought.
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Just to let you know, I have no religion. I don't really 'believe' in anything. If I was forced to choose something, it would be Buddhism.
Now, the problem I have with religion is the fact that they try to shove their religion down my throat. I highly dislike it when they [by they, I mean the followers] point at me, and say "oh, you don't believe god? You're going to hell." Who the eff is to judge whether I go to hell or not? Provided that hell exist.
It's not to say that I solely think science is everything. Science is still evolving, and there's a lot of things that hasn't been discovered yet, or is completely wrong. Who knows, god may exist. However, there isn't enough evidence for me to believe in him.
Besides my lack of faith, I think it's wonderful people believe in a religion. I think it's good that people have something to keep them living. To have faith in something, and believe that the best will result, to me, is a coping mechanism.
Let's take for example, a natural disaster. If you believe in god, you will pray and hope for a better day. However, if you do not, you will just think "oh well. What happens happens, and it doesn't matter. People are dead." or along those lines. I think it just...helps people.
It also provides a support group for people. When people collectively believe in one religion, it beings people together, and I like that. What I don't like, is when they point fingers and tell others what will happen in their life because of different views.
Now, the problem I have with religion is the fact that they try to shove their religion down my throat. I highly dislike it when they [by they, I mean the followers] point at me, and say "oh, you don't believe god? You're going to hell." Who the eff is to judge whether I go to hell or not? Provided that hell exist.
It's not to say that I solely think science is everything. Science is still evolving, and there's a lot of things that hasn't been discovered yet, or is completely wrong. Who knows, god may exist. However, there isn't enough evidence for me to believe in him.
Besides my lack of faith, I think it's wonderful people believe in a religion. I think it's good that people have something to keep them living. To have faith in something, and believe that the best will result, to me, is a coping mechanism.
Let's take for example, a natural disaster. If you believe in god, you will pray and hope for a better day. However, if you do not, you will just think "oh well. What happens happens, and it doesn't matter. People are dead." or along those lines. I think it just...helps people.
It also provides a support group for people. When people collectively believe in one religion, it beings people together, and I like that. What I don't like, is when they point fingers and tell others what will happen in their life because of different views.
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