Gmarket Haul #6

I've made quite a few hauls...SO...Here are some pictures. I was way too lazy to edit them.
This haul was made during the winter season.

The box it came in

Everything inside :D

First, the shorts.

Fake Pink Shorts

I intended to wear them to the gym

TonyMoly

I got the Tomatox, and the lipgloss bars, and lip tints. Rest are free samples.

Etude house

I only got the O2 White kit, and sunscreen block. The free item was a cup.

SHOE

Beautiful shoe, with red sole.

You can see the red.

Hanskin BB cream

One of my favourite BB creams. I had to stock up...LOL

From the company Tears. It's Kwon Sang woo's cosmetic company :D

My ultimate blush!! I love it SOSOSOS much!

Bra and Underwear set

So friggin cute! But I got the wrong size, and there's massive padding in this bra :x

TANK TOP!

I wanted to wear it to the gym.

The back.

Winter hat! It was intended as a gift..but yeah...I kept it xD

Yet again, an amazing order from gmarket. It took 2 weeks tops from submitting the order to arriving at my door. It took a little longer than usual because it was christmas time.

Day 13 - Somewhere you'd like to move to or visit

I would love to visit Korea one day, it has been one of the places for me to travel to for a really long time.
There are so many place, it's hard to choose just one. Korea, Japan, Australia, China.

I would probably move to china if I had to move somewhere. However, I'm content with where I am right now.

Day 12 - Bullet your whole day

- woke up around 10
- washed my face and brushed my teeth
- went to the gym for an hour or so.
- came back
- went on computer
- took a shower
- skyped with a friend
- went to fortinos for groceries
- watched gray's anatomy for 6 hours.
- now skyping with friends.
- end of day.

Sadly, it's the summer, so my life is boring.

Day 11 - Put your ipod oh shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

I know I missed a day. I was busy. SORRY! Gosh, I am horrible with this...

1) Dong Bang Shin Ki - SHE
2) Dong Bang Shin Ki - I Don't Know
3) 2PM - Back 2 U
4) Beige - Listen to my heart
5) Seo In Young - Can't I love?
6) Epik High - Map The Soul (feat. MYK)
7) Super Junior - Shining star
8) Se7en - Better Together
9) Younha - 1,2,3
10) 2AM (Lee Chang min) - Don't Swallow

Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss

To be honest, I don't know who my first love is, or if I ever met my first love yet.
However, I have had my first kiss.
It was this year in university, when I was 18. Yup, I'm a late bloomer, and everyone's surprised by this.

The guy, we mutually liked each other [I think, or so he said]. We were hanging out in his dorm, on his bed. On his first advances, I was scared an refused. Seriously, it was scary. I was thinking, "do I want to love my first kiss to this guy? and this situation?"

It happened again, and I just did it. Got it over with. I was scared. To be honest. However, it was nice. I had no idea what I was doing. LOL It was a sad sight, and I was so embarrassed because his roommate was there.
It wasn't under the rain, and it wasn't somewhere romantic. We were exactly in a relationship, so that was kind of off. I had no idea what we were.

Sometimes, I wish I didn't do it, but I don't regret it. I liked him, and I'm glad I at least kissed someone I liked.

Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like

I hope my future is filled with happiness, and a healthy family.
I would love to have a nice steady income that my family can live comfortably in without worry about bankruptcy.
I hope that I achieve my dream job, and dream diploma.
Marry a wonder man who loves me, and will never purposely hurt me. And if he did, he will say sorry. I want to be the couple where people will say "They're still together?" and "I wish I was like them"
I want to have 2 children, a boy and a girl. They will be smart, loving, caring children who are obedient.
I will have a extravagant wedding, where all my and his family will gather together to celebrate our binding.
My house will be grand, and I will be living in a nice neighbourhood where my children will be safe.

Overall, I will be happy. I want my future to be happy, and where I will be working a job I will be satisfied with. Where I will not be working at a minimum waged job.

Eos new adult brown

This is just a sneak peek of the new adult brown lenses I own! I love them to death. It's beautiful~~ hehe

Day 08 - A Moment you felt most satisfied with your life

A moment when I felt most satisfied.

When school started. In september, I was making new friends, I was social, but my marks were still high. I almost had everything. No, I didn't have a boyfriend at that time. I didn't need a guy to make me satisfied with my life. I felt strong, empowered to be independent and on my own. I loved my life then. It felt so perfect, good school, good grades, social life, sleep. It lasted for a month or so.

Then, it stopped. I pushed myself too hard. Things got stressful. I always push myself to my limit. But, I still wouldn't have it any other way.

Another moment that I felt happy was when the guy I liked said he liked me too.
Again, as all moments are, they are moments. They can only last for so long.
But, when it did happen, it felt great. I felt like I was on top of the world.

Another one was when I won jay park's album. It was fantastic. I got a poster, and jay was sexy. I was so lucky and greatful to win it!

I feel most satisfied with my life when I do something I enjoy. I feel relaxed and it doesn't feel rushed or pushed.
I sometimes enjoy studying, I feel satisfied when I accomplish my goal, maybe a simple one like studying in the library, to getting the best mark I can on my courses. Or..even being the best sister, the best friend, the best person I can.

There are many moments where I feel satisfied. Where I feel blissful.

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it matches your personality

My zodiac sign is the Taurus. So I will be referencing to this wikipedia link on what a Taurus should be like.

So, first thing I see it says "stability, resistance to change, and the ability to 'enjoy the people'."
I do like stability, resist change so that is true, thought, this is applicable to anyone. Enjoy people? Not exactly sure what that means.

Based on what I'm reading on wikipedia, it is quite accurate. I am an introvert, passive aggressive. I do hold in my anger, but when I get angry, I blow up.

Although I do read my horoscope every morning, I do not believe that it foretells the future, or anything. There may be some spiritual connection. However, because I am a taurus does not mean that I'm like every taurus, or that my personality can be generalized. I do think that there may be a correlation though.

Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself

1) I like learning.
2) I have a high pain tolerance
3) I'm very independent. I don't like anybody doing things for me.
4) Sometimes, I go crazy organizing things. For example, things MUST be in a certain order. Or colour...
5) I like the colour pink. Not any pink, but baby pink.
6) I'm bad with change. I get into a routine, and hate it when that get's messed up.
7) I like routine.
8) I'm a morning person.
9) But I still like sleep.
10) I like eating.
11) I like shopping [clearly]
12) Sometimes, I'm overly emotional.
13) I sometimes buy 2 of everything, one to use, and one to just...keep. LAWL
14) Despite organizing things like crazy, I can be messy...and when I am, I'm REALLY messy.
15) I try to smile a lot.
16) I'm not as girly as I look. I'm manly at times. I burp like a man : D
17) I'm lazy.
18) I have bad vision, and sometimes can't see things...or people.
19) I like taking pictures, but I've become too shy now to whip out my camera and take pictures.
20) Sometimes [or is it often...?] I say something that sounds horrible, but I didn't mean to...For example I may say 'it' instead of he or she. I don't mean that they aren't human...it's just habit that I say that.
21) I'm really shy, yet, outgoing? I'm shy to approach people sometimes, but if you talk to me, I'm friendly. Does that make sense?
22) I'm not very creative. When making usernames...I'm usually stuck.
23) I'm a private person. I don't like people knowing my business. [Although, I am writing a blog...haha]
24) I'm a texting addict. I love texting people!
25) I'm self-conscious. I notice all of my flaws, and anything wrong with me. You could say I have low self-esteem. But, I do know that I'm not ugly. I just get moments where I don't believe I'm attractive. At all.
26) I've probably had every procedure done on my teeth. Wisdom teeth extraction? yup. Braces? yup. Root canal? yup. Expanders? oh hell yeah. I've done nearly everything to have perfect teeth.
27) I dislike needles. Yeah...gotta suck if I want to go into the medical field.
28) I'm punctual. And I hate people who aren't.
29) I'm frugal. I don't like to waste money. Though, I'm questioning my money management skills right now. 
30) I'm a messy eater. I get things in my hair or lap.. haha

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your life.

Oh boy.... As an anguish teen, this thought runs through my head all the time. I've never went through with it though.

I don't know how many times when I was younger where I wish that I wasn't alive. I was a shy kid, and I hated being alone. Majority of my childhood was spent by myself.

Yes, I have cut myself. Not something I'm proud of. It really isn't healthy, and yes, I have thoughts of re-lapsing, but I haven't cut myself for 5 years. I don't think I could do it again, it's not worth it. So if you have the strength, please stop. Life get's better. Trust me on this. I know.

Now, as a young teen, I was quite depressed. Going through puberty, with my parents working, I never got to see them. I had to grow up quickly, and with the wide array of hormones popping up in my body, I was overly emotional. I wanted my parents around, but they were never there for me. They had to provide for us. We didn't have a lot of money growing up, despite what it may seem.

In some ways, I really craved attention, and that was one of the ways. If they saw me hurting, they might pay attention to me. They might notice how much I'm hurting emotionally.

There was one time, where I took off the screen mesh of my window, and just climbed out to look at the stars. A lot had been happening at school, and I didn't necessarily wanted to jump, but if I fell...it wouldn't have mattered to me.

But anyways, I have thought of suicide, more than once. And I still get those thoughts every so often. It doesn't necessarily mean I act upon them thought.

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

Just to let you know, I have no religion. I don't really 'believe' in anything. If I was forced to choose something, it would be Buddhism.
Now, the problem I have with religion is the fact that they try to shove their religion down my throat. I highly dislike it when they [by they, I mean the followers] point at me, and say "oh, you don't believe god? You're going to hell." Who the eff is to judge whether I go to hell or not? Provided that hell exist.
It's not to say that I solely think science is everything. Science is still evolving, and there's a lot of things that hasn't been discovered yet, or is completely wrong. Who knows, god may exist. However, there isn't enough evidence for me to believe in him.
Besides my lack of faith, I think it's wonderful people believe in a religion. I think it's good that people have something to keep them living. To have faith in something, and believe that the best will result, to me, is a coping mechanism.
Let's take for example, a natural disaster. If you believe in god, you will pray and hope for a better day. However, if you do not, you will just think "oh well. What happens happens, and it doesn't matter. People are dead." or along those lines. I think it just...helps people.
It also provides a support group for people. When people collectively believe in one religion, it beings people together, and I like that. What I don't like, is when they point fingers and tell others what will happen in their life because of different views.

Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol

Drugs are bad for you kids!

No, but seriously, drugs can eff you over. It may seem cool and fun at first, but your life will be in ruins. The money spent, the times wasted, and it just isn't healthy for you. Just don't do it. I'm totally against drugs. Addiction to anything is bad, and harmful to your body. No I have never done drugs, and I never plan to. People have offered [sad,  know] but I've always rejected. I have too bright of a future to waste it away with drugs....Sorry if I offended any druggies. I just don't think drugs are good. By drugs, I mean the illegal ones, not the prescription drugs for infection or other diseases.


Alcohol, is another matter. It's all good in moderation. Just don't drink too much, and...I would say drink when you're legal...but pft. We all know you guys [wow...I'm speaking like as if I'm an old geezer] will drink before of age. And legal ages are all different in different countries. But yes, be a safe drinker. You will want to remember the night when your friends are doing silly things. Yes, I do drink, but only with people I know and feel safe around. I try not to drink when there are strangers around. I've had a bad experience with alcohol, and I never want to repeat that again. I've never been dependent on alcohol, where I would potentially go to AA. I have since controlled myself. I used to be so afraid of drinking, but now I sometimes do feel like an alcoholic. I'm not though, but I feel different from before. Ok, that's enough about alcohol.

Day 02 - Where You'd Like to Be in 10 Years

This is something I have always pondered about. As a kid, I would always always say "In school" And...all in honesty, that's probably where I'll end up in 10 years. In school, still learning.
Where would I like to be? In a medical clinic working as a physician. Or a family Doctor. That's my ideal.
You know what's funny? When someone gets asked that question, it almost always leads to what career they wish to have. It really does.

How old would I be again…? oh right…Nearly 30.
Well, I want to have kids and be married by 25/26ish. I don’t know, it just seems like the perfect time. I don’t want to be an old mom…But it probably won’t happen as planned.
But, if I’m not a doctor, I wouldn’t mind working in a research lab for a pharmacy, or in a chemist lab. ahhhhh…the research, the experiments, the gloves, the smell of lab equipment. It gets me excited. LOL
So, where would I like to be in 10 years? Working in my dream job, happy to go to work. With a family at home. Yup. Dream life.

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is

SINGLE FOR LIFE! CRAZY CAT LADY! *derp face*

Yup, I’m single, and I’ll probably be single for a while. I’ve never been in a relationship before either.
How is single life? Umm…awesome?
I get to talk to who I want, and hang out with who I want. No stress of “omg…he’s not replying…does he hate me?” and “Dafuq is he thinking?!” There's so many stressful things about relationships, I'm not sure I can handle it. Schools already a handful, I don't think I can balance my life.

Yes, it is lonely no having someone, but…I’m satisfied by myself.
I’m rather be with someone for good reasons, rather than be with someone simply so I’m not alone. I don’t want to be with someone in the mean time while I wait, and find a better person. That’s just…not right.
 At this point in life, if I'm with someone, it'll be long term, and it'll be someone I see myself with for a long time. Am I taking it too seriously? Maybe. But I want to find and be with the right person, not the wrong one. I'd rather not have all the stress and all the tears for the wrong guy, so I'm going to just...avoid all that until I'm sure, until I'm certain about it.

I also think I have so much in store for me…so much potential in my future, I don’t want a guy to ruin it for me [sorry future man…you ruin me. jkkkksss]. Sometimes, I have thoughts where…I’ll be the type of lady who marries her career, the type that falls in love with her career, and can’t settle down. I know if I get my dream job, I won’t be able to part from it. I would love what I do [related to medicine or science]. But I also want a family, ugh, so torn.

Plus, I’d rather not seem like a hoe being in multiple relationships. Nu uh.

Embrace single life people.

30 Day Challange!

SO I"M GOING TO START THE 30 DAY CHALLANGE. YES I"M YELLING.
I've neglected to even...blog, so TADUM!

YAY!

GUISE GUISE! I found my camera. LOL
It was hiding in my box when I was cleaning things up...
Yeah...Thank god I found it! : D
I've been wanting to post some FOTD and EOTD....

Happier days

Although being cooped up in my room due to exams should send me into a spiral of depression...it doesn't.
I feel mellow, content with life right now.
I think I've finally set things right again, and i'm hoping that life will turn around.
I've patched things up with a few people in my life, and I can't wait for things to move forward.
I have got to stop being so shy and intimidated by things. I used to be able to talk to people so easily, and introduce myself. Now, I've found it to be harder, but I think I've got my spark back.

Now, I will be camping in my room or library and studying away.

Just to make this entry worthwhile, this is my makeup for saint patricks day. As a uni student, saint patricks day is designated as a day to be drunk all day. Alas, I held the party in my room (not really my party, I was the venue - -) and spent majority of the time sober. Cleaning up my room was a horror. Check my twitter for the pictures.

Diet!

Hello~

So, since the start of university, I have not been eating healthy. I have been eating the food they provide at residence, which consist of burgers, fries and the sort. Clearly...I had gained a massive amount of weight from it. Specifically, freshman 15. Right now, I plan to lose majority of this weight for the summer.

So, here is the plan:

NO:
- cookies
- candy
- chocolate
- chips
- fries
- sugar
- ice cream
- junk food

CUT:
- carbs
- caffeine
- juices
- oil
- salt

OK:
- Drink 8 bottles of water per day
- salad
- fruits
- one serving of meat per day
- one glass of milk per day
- whole wheat

CALORIES PER DAY: 1800
No eating after 9 pm.

In addition to more sleep, and exercise, which consist of min 45 min of running.
I will attempt to exercise 2-4 times per week, depending on my schedule.

Let's hope this all goes well!

Lonley

Sitting in my dorm room right now, with my roommate out (my other roommate dropped out of school).
Feeling a little lonely as usual without the company of others.
I remember at the beginning of the year, where I felt perfectly content without the company of others. In fact, I enjoyed just taking a stroll out by myself. I would confidently look onwards and straight ahead to my destination.
I don't know what changed, but I rarely go out now, and when I do...my gaze is downward cast, fearing to look anyone in the eyes. I feel so introverted. I miss some of the friends I had made. I don't understand why and how I had lost contact with them and how my life has become like this.
I would rather be in a group of friends, feeling lonely than to be by myself and feeling alone.
Regardless of whether I have company or not, I would feel lonely.
Along with the rush of life, I think I have lost myself. I'm different from the me in the beginning of the year, and I don't know if I like it.
Yes, I am more mature now, but the me in the beginning was so..bright, so exciting yet, sensible.
Now, I'm dull, systematic.

I don't know what I have done wrong.
Why do you guys keep walking away?
I hope that things can get better.
I want my friends and I to talk again.

I want to stop crying.

My vain birthday gift to myself

So, my birthday is coming up in a few days, and I got myself an early birthday gift.
I bought myself a Tiffany charm bracelet!
Yes, quite an expensive buy, but I think it's worth it! It's gorgeous!

I'M SO HAPPY WITH IT!
It's quite heavy for a bracelet.
Sadly, I've already scratched it. *sad*
But, it was nice and shiny while it lasted.
I have to say, craftsmanship is amazing! You can't even see the seams!
Now time to get back to study for final exams.

CRISIS!

GUISE!...I lost my camera. LOL
It might be at the residence, or my house. I've been attempting to look for it, but I honestly can't find it.
SUPER SAD!
I don't know if I lost it, or it got stolen.
... it has some embarrassing pictures of myself.
OH GOD WHY?!

...so that helps explain my lack of updates...or...no updates.
despite my promise of a new blog post.
I fail...
I'm really sorry.

BUT!
You guys can follow my Twitter and Tumblr!
I update quite often. twitter consist of my life and rants. Whereas, Tumblr contains re-blogs of pictures and quotes and stuff I like.

I might get an ipad this sat, provided they still have some... so if I do get one, I'll be able to update often :)

On top of the world.

Have you ever felt like you were on top of the world, and nothing could bring you down?
You just feel satisfied with your life, and you don't want any more or less than that?
You feel like, if your life ended right now, you would be okay with it because you've felt like you lived.
And at the same time you're scared to die because life is amazing, and you don't want it to stop.

That was my life a month ago.
Until it all came crashing down.
I'm picking up the bits and pieces now, and I'm starting to feel the happiness I once felt.
I still wonder, if I could go back, could I have fixed things?

What a depressing post.
I wanted to post an outfit of the day, but I haven't edited it yet :(
pooie, I'm too lazy and busy.